Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Hello readers!
yes I know its going to be 3am in few minutes time.
can't help it, I just can't sleep and like what maman said I've been sleeping very late lately. I just dunno why la~ only god knows how fcuked up I feel right now :(
Partly because of pms and partly because of you-know-who. Yes, I may seem happy and smiling but deep inside....?arghhh
I think I'm being too nice to you until somehow I feel you're taking advantage of my trust towards you. Maybe, I should just give him more time?or should I say, I need more time? tk tau la kan...
Sometimes I wish that I've listened to my friends earlier not to accept your apology. Like people always said, 'once a cheater/liar will always be one'. idk.
I do face situation worst than this. I know I do look like I'm strong to face all this reality but actually, I'm not. Like I've always told you and you know it yourself, there's always limits to someone's patience. I don't wish to fight and don't wish to repeat the same mistakes like the past. Boleh lemas la wei. :( I do love you and I think you love me too. The only thing is that sometimes I just don't get you, there's one thing that always spoilt everything. I just hate that feeling. I just think that you've changed :( After the recent incident, I just feel like canceling the bdae plans. arghhhh. but hey! I don't okay! and I managed to handle my feelings. woohoo. nvm. I just need to prepare for the worst later~ :(
ok saturday, went to kenduri cukur rambot but idk why they do a bdae party also for the babies -.- but hey!drg cute giler xia...
That was just now, the surprise bdae celebration...
gd nite! :)
p.s I feel insecured :(
:MIZKISS;
2:22 AM
